On the blog of Flow Magazine I read the saying ‘Tomorrow is another day’. That is so true. As an M.E.-patient this is a slogan that accompanies me during my current life. Regularly things that I intend to do the next day or which I look forward to, don’t turn out they way I want. Because my body isn’t up to it. I know now: that is the way it goes.
Every day my life is like that TV show Wheel of Fortune. Sometimes even more than once a day, because my physical well being is unpredictable and can change dramatically. Tomorrow is another day. A new round means a new chance. Are you trying to win a washing machine? Well, that is too bad, you ran into a bankrupt. And in this game there are no bonuses because that is according to the rules of M.E.
It seems that (I am not quite sure) the Dutch host of this show every now and then sipped his glass to get through the endless recording sessions. It may have looked like water, but was nothing less than vodka.
‘Ordinary’ people go abseiling, bungee jumping or buy a house during the recession to make sure they live an exciting life, I realize cynically. Are you looking for something adventurous? Try living the life of an M.E.-patient all your days will be very exciting, because you never know what is hitting you next. Indeed: You can’t be a wimp, while suffering from M.E.
Someone can have a thousand wishes, but while being ill only one remains.* Not a thousand washing machines or any other prizes from the Wheel of Fortune could make me happy. Because unfortunately I didn’t get to do the things that I had intended for this day. Tomorrow is another day. Or the day after tomorrow. Luckily there are tiny things that make me feel a little bit better. Today that means: lying on the sofa with the new Flow Magazine that arrived last week. With a nice cup of tea. Nope, that is not vodka in there.
*) Quote by Jan Mens, Dutch writer (1897-1967)
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